Very sorry to hear mate! I know exactly what you are going through and if you ever need to talk to someone who has been through the exact same thing just let me know.
I’m real sorry this should happen to you (or anyone else for that matter). I know words are hollow at a time like this, so I will only say you have my heartfelt condolences. I sincerely wish you and your family all the strength in the time to come.
I am very sorry to hear this. There’s nothing more I can say… But at the very least she died painlessly and peacefully. Also, judging by what you said about her she had to be a good person who had a very meaningful life (Something that many people don’t have). The fact that you were always in good relationships is something important too. I can only imagine how hard it is for you, but try to concentrate on that and remember her at her best times. Perhaps it will help you feel better.
All seems to be going as planned so far thank goodness.
A random thing for anyone interested, I thought I’d list the songs we’re having played.
A couple may seem odd for a funeral, but Mum had a really great sense of humour (Fire was one she always joked should be played for a cremation, not sure if she meant hers but we thought it was appropriate).
The rest of the songs were ones we knew she liked.
I hardly know you but I really feel for you on this. I myself am having a battle with a similar form of growth (I won’t go into it here) and know how much the shock of it can hit you and those around you, and that’s when it’s detected early. I can’t imagine what you went through when there was no apparent hope. You said that it might seem pathetic to post it here but honestly, I feel this is a great community where we CAN do that. I’ve only been here for a tiny amount of time but already have received so much support. Everyone has a story and is prepared to help others.
I hope that things get better for you soon mate. I can’t imagine losing my mother, even though her and I get along erratically at best of times.
She’ll always be with you, just as you’ll always be with your children and those close to you.
Let us know how everything goes, we’re here for you.