Thommy H:
I cry when I think my parents will never know the pain I'm going through, and the fact I can't show them what I'm going through.
Step 1: tell them. Right now. Tell them everything you just told us. Obviously you've had a diagnosis of mental health problems in the past and, I'm telling you now, you don't sound like you have the strength to carry the burden you're carrying. You don't need to be in this relationship. Screw the shame, screw the church or whatever: you need to be
safe. It's going to kill you if you carry on, and it sounds like it almost has already. So do what no one ever tells you to do and be selfish. Look after number one. Recognise that you're in a situation that is badly exacerbating your condition.
We can only provide so much advice. You need to go to the people in your life that will help you and, if you don't have that support network, you need to find a group that will. Seek professional help if that's what it takes to find some people who'll support you.
Kera foehunter:
Life is but a journey !
one must be happy First .these are Life lession we learn while we walk the path of life …
throw who don’t learn them has to repeat them…
You need to go on a walk about clear your head
all life problem are simple if you leave them simple
Thommy H:
Why don’t you go and stay with your parents for a bit?
Grimstonefire:
Do you want this deleted?
From what I remember the thread starter cannot delete the first post of a thread, only edit out the contents. Only a mod can actually delete the first post.
I don’t have much to offer really in relationship advice and I would be very wary of doing so on something important like this. But my only question would be do you honestly see what’s going on now as something you want to work through, presuming it can be at all?
If you decide that then the course of action afterwards is more logical to work out.
I would suggest, as a precaution, that you quietly start to sneak out of the house anything that has hugely important emotional value or are important documents (birth certificate, bank statements, legal documents etc). Store them with someone you trust for a while.
To lose things like these would hurt you a lot more in the long run. 
Thommy H:
You can delete your own threads. I tried it recently on some random thread I made years ago to check. If you’re the OP and you delete the first post, it gets rid of everything.
fattdex:
I would gtfo as fast as possible to minimise damage too dont be sneaky though get an a-team together and move it all out in one hit. Kudos and man credits for pulling the eject lever.
Thommy H:
Use the delete button at the bottom of the post. Or, at least, you can just edit the text away to nothing.
Zuh-Khinie:
As Grim said, gather up all things of import and stash them somewhere safe.
Then find yourself a person you trust… you say you go for drives on your own, can’t you drive to your parents?.. and talk to them in person, explain how you feel. Everybody needs a non-virtual network to rely on in times like these.
I’m not an expert in aussie-law, but nothing you wrote here is useable against you in a court of law (not where I live anyhow).
You’re just a guy pouring his heart out, and I feel your pain. I’m sorry I can’t really help you.
Necrotique:
Thanks everyone. I edited the text away to nothing.
I’ll probably drive to my friends’ place once I sober up.
I’m sorry for posting this all on here, it’s just, by-and-by, the people on here are a lot nicer and less judgemental than those with mutual affiliation.
Honestly, a massive thank-you to everyone on here.
I’ll take it a day at a time, but I’ve been focussing a lot on my fitness to cope with this.
I aim to apply for a job as an ambulance officer (read: paramedicine) within 6 months, so I have to get back into ship-shape.
Thommy H:
I don’t think someone who physically assaults him is someone he should be listening to, Kera. If everything in Necrotique’s story is accurate (and there are two sides to everything…), this isn’t an issue that can be put down to gender politics. It’s an abusive relationship, and he should be looking for ways to come out of it alive, not fix it.
snowblizz:
Thanks everyone. I edited the text away to nothing.
I'll probably drive to my friends' place once I sober up.
I'm sorry for posting this all on here, it's just, by-and-by, the people on here are a lot nicer and less judgemental than those with mutual affiliation.
Necrotique
Don't be! Apparently you really needed to vent. If random spouting saves just one person from being miserable or worse then I'm all for reading pages of it. I read the stuff before you deleted it and I want to add my support for what others have said. If even half of what you wrote was accurate I'd call it quits long ago.
I'm reminded about the many many threads about gamers and their SOs where SOs belittle and complain about their hobby. To me that is a massive warning sign. Clearly they do not respect you as a person if they cannot accept that you have a hobby that you enjoy.
I say this in all well meaning, there's no doubt both of you need counseling and time apart. By the sound of it that might be permanently. If so, so be it. No shame in that. Don't let anyone convince you otherwise.
Thommy H:
No. Healthy relationships don’t involve (non-consensual) violence of any description. Sorry, I feel quite strongly about this one. I’m a married man, and if I ever raised a hand to my wife, I’d rightly expect to be kicked out of the house immediately.
Grimstonefire:
Personally I’d prefer to discuss problems like that kera from a nice safe distance. Over the phone maybe.
If someone did anything like that to me because they wanted to be left alone. Great, I’d kick them out or leave myself!
Kera foehunter:
Your right Thommy you shouldn’t hit a woman .
see you still don’t get it!!
I bet a pay check …if he go home and sit down and respect her and ask her what is wrong
I’m here and understand that i have made you mad .How can i fix this
What can i do to change my behavior
everything will be great
A great Chief once said : If you tell a woman that she is right
there will be no more fighting …ever
A smart man once he realize a woman can do everything better than he could!!
That was the(only man) that could do anything he wanted, from then on
Thommy H:
So it’s impossible for a woman to do any wrong in a relationship?
