I’ve always loved pirates and ships and navies of all kinds. And so Admiral, or rather Master_Admiral became my first online nickname when my friends managed to get me into their Starcraft: Brood War clan, called Master. This was roughly in 2002 at about age 12, not too long before my little brother in 2003 discovered the GW Lotr starting set and then immediately got us into Warhammer.
As my friends a year later were nasty enough to kick me out for no reason*, this transitioned into Lotr_Gimli while my brother chose the name Lotr_Aragorn (his first account name was Ass_King), as we discovered the joys of Lotr maps on Starcraft: Brood War. I then switched to an account called Voronwe [MQ], with MQ standing for Moriquendi (dark elf), with the higher circle of clan having the tag [CQ] for Calaquendi (light elf). This was because Starcraft: Brood War’s Use Map Settings custom games experienced a flourishing golden age of Lotr maps of all kinds thanks to the Lotr movie trilogy, and the CQ/MQ clan was one dedicated to Lotr maps, with all members bearing Silmarillion elf names.
Voronwe[MQ] thus became my first account name when I discovered Warseer forums in 2005, which I frequented for several years. Taking a break from Warseer (but not Warhammer; I’ve never taken a hobby break), I would later return to hobby forums when random curiosity led me to Google Chaos Dwarfs, who had always intrigued me, which made me stumble upon the leaked pictures of upcoming Forgeworld Legion of Azgorh miniatures and concept sketches. And also Chaos Dwarfs Online, which I joined.
Now, while I’ve always liked the Voronwe[MQ] name, it was at the end of the day one imposed on me when joining the Lotr clan on Starcraft. While Admiral had been my own chosen name, the one which naturally occurred to me at once.
And so I picked Admiral as my account name on Chaos Dwarfs Online in 2011, as the first thing that seemed natural to me.
This soon led me back to Warseer and by extension other Warhammer forums. The problem here was that Admiral was too generic a name, and thus it was usually already taken by someone else. Ergo I had to come up with something more specific, which was why I chose Karak Norn Clansman as my online nickname on all platforms other than Chaos Dwarfs Online. Karak Norn has always been my Dwarf hold, due to the winning combination of blue and red colours. While Clansman has a good archaic Dwarven ring to it.
Cheers
*Something like it, but much more hurtful had previously happened at age 11-12, when two friends kicked me out after we three had spent a long time drawing all manner of city maps together. Wacco city, we called the growing city mapscape. It was malevolent of them, and I have never learnt why they did such a petty evil thing. Especially on top of all the endless petty malice I had to suffer every day in school; mapmaking with friends was a fun relief while it lasted. I was the most energetic map drawer of us all. It still hurts to think about. It would be a bit like me being kicked out of Chaos Dwarfs Online all of a sudden for no reason after years of creative work and communal fun.
I have always thrived in creative communities and creative group projects. I have always excelled at them, and I am basically doing the same things today as I did as a kid at age 8, just more advanced. That ostracism from mapmaking friends at age 11-12 came as a sudden lightning bolt from a clear sky, and it was a betrayal, and its sting lingers. It stands out because of how unexpected it was. I’ve always been infectiously optimistic and jolly by nature. I’ve always striven to be kind and helpful to others all life long, and in return I had to endure a slice of hell on earth every day for years on end throughout school. A living, soul-grinding nightmare that I was mandated by law to attend, a torment which nothing could solve until I at last finished the last year and crawled out, essentially shell-shocked and with my once-praised social competence in tatters. I’ve never truly recovered, though I always try to make the best of it and try to get back to the so-often acclaimed social competence of my peak years.
And I have a very good long-term facts memory, whilst my brain has never had to suffer the detrimental effects of alcohol or anything like it. So everything is remembered in vivid details, without the nostalgia of rosy glasses. The very good memory is Dwarven, whereas my lifelong shunning of alcohol is not!
Ah well. Now you know what’s in a name! 